I’m still trapped in a Kobayashi Maru

I know I’ll always know my soul can only make plain but Donegan lifestyle Gloria and James that can only be anything by killing a ranger and killing an Austin police officer for cynthino and Cointreau did to me I know they’ve got to burn them and kill them and cut their heads off and just by death to do so you know my death I can’t write about them and I can’t let them live either I can’t find any way out of this I’ve got to kill them and I’ve got to not to there’s no other solution and there is no solution