I have disspointed myself and my father many times and that was clear to both of us. One of the worst was during a period of time when I had just been fired from Wells Fargo in about 2002. I had thought for 5 years at least before that I was beings stalked and placed in “5150” paronoid person detention a few times for that earlier. I think it had a factor in behind the scenes firing at Wells Fargo and the fight I was in too. Well after all that my father came out to visit and the Blue Angeles were to be flying over. I was busy playind odd games with Stalkers at that time sure they were trhing to frame me and me trying to deny them aby hot hold to put a frame job on.
My father told me he was concerned I was on drugs. I had already been in Merrit Peralta REhab but did not trust custody since an odd presence was all over the place that made no sense. I did not trust any kind of custory and I still do not so I used outpatient day treatment only. It was a great rehab I still consider often in sitatuions I face. At his meeing though with my father who had come to visit in San Francisco my father spoke of rehab again. He would he said sell his condo to pay for rehab if that is what it would take. He was advanced in years and not that well to do. But that was another converstaion. He said at one point in a somber conversation with me he missed the high tech market boom as an investor because he did not want the highs and lows of papwer money. He did want college for moey as being securre, etc., and he prefered secure investments too. But he had spent so much money on me because he had so much hope for me and had so muh hope for me because he saw so much potentiona in me. He could not stand my losses in life much more.
I completely missed in meeting on the bay for the Blue Angeles. But today so long later I regret what developed in me is the subject of such crime, my being attacked as both Nature and Nurture by violent gans with the police helping. I am the last horse in the race after Tom died. For the police to have black thugs standing outside my apartmenet windows exposing their geneitals to me, threating me, etc., and attacking me is outrageious. That they would interfere with my books, etc., outgrageous. This is a society of scum. Many (including my father) did not like my race-realism politics but that is no basis for the rest of this. Criminals should not rule the day but in the world of GangStalking today it does.
Why did he fight for this counrty is a question I put to him after his death. This country is a complete joke. I am sure he would want if they could the Russians to help het again.
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